I do not know till how much time is that the truth. I am so hoping for it to be though. I am pretty sad right now, and also need this immense immaculate force of god (who I think I do not believe in), to make my luck as sweet as it gets. And I think it works.
People keep saying that let your emotions out, that they are the most important thing. Otherwise it will become this large black hole which will keep on increasing and increasing till a day will come when it will collapse under its own weight.
Its wonderful how all the things are related, and how the meaning of one context can be just taken and fixed for a meaning of something else.
Do your best, and leave everything to the rest. What a crappy and a unrealistic thing to say. What about the time when you do not want to put your full effort towards it because you know that it is not what you want.
What if you are the kind of person who does not like to put full effort in anything. Never have done so, and never ever want to as well. Is there only one way for you to actually get what you want. And if there is something that you really want, but are unable to change yourself, should you just go and die?
There are so many fundamental things wrong with the rules with which we leave, it is unbelievable. We are men of god. God teaches us to love and live in harmony with each other. Do well for the other human being. But in an instution which is arguably as respected, if not more, education, it is preached that you have to step on the other person if you want to succeed.
People laugh at you and call you dumb if you do not do that.
Do you remember all these zombie movies which we see quite often these days. Well, the new trend is 'reality' horror, but my point is that we have driven ourselves so far ahead in the road, that we have reached a precarious unforsaken place where we can very well consider ourselves as the ZOMBIES. We do not do any harm to another person who is a good contributing member of the zombie society, but kill the sweet, normal good person the chance we get to know that he is surviving out there. And as movies would have it, do not rest till he becomes just like us.
The only thing that I want right now is to have a lot of money, love, a good body and a long long vacation, where I would do what I want to do.
Heh, that sums up all the things who anyone ever might want, but well what the hell.
This is my Wish. Universe, I demand that you give me more than a MILLION DOLLARS, A GOOD BODY, MY LOVE.
Lets see when I get that. And rest assured, I truly believe that I will get all these three things pretty soon. No fingers crossed, just 'touchwood', but I am going to achieve all these things. And the universe is going to give it to me.
I think I am sad. I do not have good grades, but I have interview calls. I do not have the warmth of my love as I type this, but she is much closer to me that she was a month back. Or is she?
I hope the sweet part of my sadness is awaiting me. There is not question that I am definitely awaiting it.
